:+:Labyrinth to My Heart:+: V 1.0

2005-11-19T17:13:00.000+08:00

woohoo.. day after and i will learn how to fly!! =X jkjk.. flyin to taiwan!! so exciting.. =)
oh.. watched mr hairy (harry potter) yest.. i felt that it was nice.. mayb cos i didnt read the book.. but i knew that there were a lot of missing stuff.. thks to those who went to watch with me! *happy* =3
oh.. weifang has a new and nice blog.. heh.. now i want to have a new template too! i like a frame one.. but a bit lazy to do.. =P
havent seen the amk guys for such a long time.. and the culprit is... promos and op! hopefully i can meet up with u guys soon! we'll all be busy nx yr on ne? =(
eh.. tt's all.. take care guys!

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2005-11-06T18:20:00.000+08:00

Bwahah!! I'm back from... from... hmm.. anyway.. long time ne?
first things first.. whole class is promoted!! yay! *looks ard* *crow flies pass* erm.. okay.. so it's kinda late to say this.. but nvm..
many things happened for this past half a mth.. pw.. my birthday.. oo.. op is this wk.. jiayou to those whose doing op! mine's thur.. hehe.. oh.. thks to all of yu who gave me prezzies! love them!
2 more wks to taiwan! woohoo.. cant wait! he also goin =D oh.. anybody who wants special souveniers can tell me =) if i can afford tt is.. =p
okay.. so life is.. good i supposed? i shld be happy with what i have yar.. hope it's the same for all of u..
so if u miss me call me out or what cos i might not update so soon.. =3

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2005-10-14T22:11:00.000+08:00

i'm sitting here.. staring at the computer screen.. wondering what i shld type out.. it's almost a mth since i last posted and the promos have ended last mon.. just came back from the wonderful chalet yest afternoon..
was kinda fun.. though kinda boring at the same time.. went back to aloha loyang.. but the place seems too big for 24 of us.. maybe we shld have got to changi safra =D i still love there.. nobody brought the ps2 sia.. so quite sian.. no dvd to watch no games to play.. haha.. but u guys still kick ass.. btw.. no matter if the chalet was boring or not i will still say very fun cause he was there for all 3 days too! X3
okay.. i seriously dunno what to type.. and i think i'm thinking too much these few days.. really feeling depressed le.. just feel like i wont be able to do anything.. nobody will be there for me.. i'll be all alone.. and all the bad stuff..
peace maker kurogane has this really familiar song that gav once composed.. but much nicer though.. and ffvii:ac ost rocks..

2005-09-21T21:12:00.000+08:00

How do you know that destiny exists.. and that everything is fated? there are those who say that dont leave it to fate.. believe and change yr destiny.. but does these even exist? what if i say yr book of life was empty and whatever u do and decide will then be written on the book? or yr fate was planned out for u.. even though u thought u changed yr fate.. it was actually meant to be that way?
It's really excrutiating to wait for a person.. for a person to fall in love with u.. especially if that person is really close with somebody.. and the way he acts in front of her makes u think that he is interested in her.. even she acts like she is interested in him.. they seem so close now.. it's really hard to think that there is nth between them.. and he seems to be drifting away from me..
i dunno where shld i head now.. seems to have lost my direction.. but i'm really tired of waiting for him.. it's just too difficult..
Even though i know that i shldnt be thinking abt these as the promos is approaching.. i just cant help it.. just wanted to voice it out.. since i dunno who to speak to..

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2005-09-11T15:51:00.000+08:00

oo.. realised i havent blogged for a long time.. =p life's just normal.. nth really significant..
oh.. last wed was his bdae.. so most of the class went to orchard to hold a grp celebration for all the sept born ppl.. nth much really happened.. haha.. except for the time when i passed him the present.. wenting suxian kellyann dawan and me shared the prezzie.. but they made me give the present to him.. then i was so shy.. really.. i'm a very shy person.. (o'_'o)
promos soon le.. must work hard! *ties banner with 'determine!' ard wan's head*

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2005-08-21T14:45:00.000+08:00

OMG! OMG! OMG! We were 1 out of 4 out of 200+ submissions that won the Canon DV fest BEST SHOW AWARD! wah!!!!!!!!! the awards ceremony was yest.. when they were abt to announce i was like shivering.. den when they announce i almost cried lah.. den i told myself not to cry.. but when da ge came over with the award and sat beside me i really broke down.. not too sure why though.. mayb just too overwhelmed and very gan dong.. wah.. really really very very happy.. we were the only young participates among the winners.. stupid da ge.. nv thank me lah! he forgot abt me! i'm so gonna ignore him..
though we didnt win the audience choice award.. i would really like to thank those who supported us.. the winner deserved the award.. if they did not get an award it would have been kinda sad..
then bert treated us to sizzler.. dunno whether burnt a hole in his pocket or nt.. thks for the treat anw.. i really enjoyed yest.. one of the best days of my life.. cos the 3 guys turned up.. was very happy =3 thks the 3 of you that turned up! had lotsa fun yest too.. a lot of funny things happened.. dont tell u XP will keep these memories in my heart forever.. hope that we can go out like that sometime again too!
and after yest.. i came up with a conclusion.. shit.. i still like him a lot lah.. haiz.. oh well.. like what my babe said.. dont stress over him.. now most impt is the promos! 5 wks more! okok.. shall not talk abt promos.. =p
project up next will be the sva.. this time i'm not the director )= but shld give others a chance too.. yepp.. so gotta work hard after the promos again!
someone's complain that i'm not improving in my bassing.. kinda sad.. but makes me wanna work hard.. but still sad..

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2005-08-16T18:04:00.000+08:00

Today is GiGi (my fav guinea pig's) 1 wk death anniversary. This post is dedicated to her. May she rest in peace in heaven. Minute of silence for her.

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2005-08-15T19:14:00.000+08:00

woo.. long time nv posted here.. lotsa things happened between now and the last time i posted.. anw.. most important stuff first..
wow.. my first movie production entered finals! results will be announced this sat.. will be going to the awards ceremony.. and here.. i would like to ask anyone and everyone to vote for my film! please help to spread the msg ard! it would really help! thks loads~!
Link: http://www.canon.com.sg/dvfest/bestfilm/film04.html

argh.. dunno whether issit stress or something wrong with me.. i just get SO easily irritated these few days.. i hope i dont de zhui the people ard me >_<

went to watch fireworks last sat also.. with the whole gang! so happy! though mood was ruined again by you know who.. let's hang out again tog k?! Saw johnny depp too!! waiiii~~~~~~~~ ureshii!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! johnny depp crazy.. cant wait for PoC2 to be released =o

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2005-07-27T20:33:00.000+08:00

i'm daydreaming again.. how i wished i could attend to one of those firworks festivals in Japan where the girls wear kimonos and the guys wear those kenshin-styled clothes to watch the fireworks festival in summer.. of course attend with the person i like... wahhh.. so romantic.. too bad in Singapore nobody wears kimonos to watch the fireworks festival.. but I still wish to watch the fireworks with the special someone.. and too bad the special someone has not appeared beside me yet.. so for now i can only dream..
oh.. i have made a firm decision.. I shall stop chasing.. since either he is reluctant or pretending to be oblivious to my actions.. hmph.
back to fireworks.. yea.. so mayb the 'he' is not there.. but the gang will be meeting up to watch the fireworks.. i hope we can watch charlie n the choc factory tog too~
i miss them.. i dont know if i shld go to nomad.. vanessa's going on fri.. but i cant make it on fri.. dunno how..

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2005-07-17T20:41:00.000+08:00

wahahahaha! went to baybeats with pip yest! too tired yest so didnt blog.. actually i'm kinda lazy to blog.. havent blog for a looonngggg time liaoz.. very busy with filming.. actually i ran away frm filming to go watch =p but i really wld have regretted if i didnt go watch.. it totally rocked!! the crowd was crazy.. the music was awesome.. haha.. n i realised my taste for music has changed.. how i wished i cld go to today's performance.. so many other bands i nv heard before.. how i wish i had a little more freedom..
anyway.. i was kinda shocked.. the majority of the ppl there were muds.. pip taught me tt word yest.. but she told me dont go ard using it.. it's not a nice word.. those ppl also had black eyeshadow n eyeliner.. kinda poseur nia.. anw.. not my prob.. none of the bands were under the visual kei category lahz.. they were all indie and alternative rock bands.. dunno what their fans thinking.. but i think a lot of them came frm malaysia.. *shrugs*
we only heard the 2 bands full performance - Love Me Butch and Vertical Rush.. totally different types of music.. really wanted to hear lunarin, set for glory and brandston.. too bad the timing wasnt right.. we wanted to watch Electrico too.. but then they were only performing today.. oh well.. there'll be other chances..
so lucky to see the fireworks display too! didnt know that yest was the ndp rehearsal.. so shiok.. so many eye-feasters ^^
i shall post some pics we took =) shld have brought my camcorder to record the songs n let the guys hear nia.. too bad they didnt go.. =p
This is Love Me Butch.. only the guitarist n bassist.. we didnt dare go to the centre cause the ppl there were crazy.. didnt wanna get hurt.. >_<
This is Vertical Rush.. One of the 'best' pics taken.. the rest were blur cos the environment was dark and the stage wasnt very bright..

ohhh.. after that we went to see the visual arts section.. we were so shocked to see that some of those art pieces were done by amkss!! so proud of them ^^V
Personally i like this piece a lot.. the girl is so cute.. *laser eyes*
heez.. me n pip~
last pic for today~ haha.. me being a pig.. i went to raffles city to grab a cup of mocha frappucino.. n guess where i was drinking it? in the train! then pip took out her camera n took this shot.. she said it looked like i was sniffing the coffee =_=
haha.. crazy us took lotsa pics.. let's go out again k?? hehe.. then must kope my kor kor de gd cam =D

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2005-07-09T21:07:00.000+08:00

tired. i'm dead tired. few constant days of shooting the 15 min clip for the canon competition. havent had time to have proper rest.. let alone doing my hw.. i wanna slp late to do my hw! but there's filming tmr.. gotta rest early..
argh.. the cca teacher was tagging along with us the whole day today.. making so many unneccessary comments.. what justin said abt new teachers was totally true.. they think tt they are so great.. as if they have the pwr to take control over us.. wth.. the teacher was super irritating.. n he's tagging along again tmr.. argh.. the other older teacher was much nicer lah.. the things he said were much more listenable.. those new teachers shld learn frm the older teachers.. damn fcked up..
i want to start jamming too.. shit.. i'm beginning to miss the 1st 3 mths days when the old gang always hang out tog.. didnt know i was such a sentimental person.. oh wait.. i was always a sentimental person!

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2005-07-08T22:05:00.000+08:00

Somebody told me that I looked like I havent had days of good night's rest.. but i have been slping for 7+ hrs everyday.. mayb it's because I still cant get used to waking up early.. and that means my dark eye rings are very visible.. if not it means i look sick -_- either way.. it's bad.. and i think i did get tanner.. haiz.. after so much hard work of getting fairer skin.. oh well..
da ge told me that i still like him.. well.. i guess so.. no matter what he said to me that day.. i still kinda like him.. i'm very very sad, puzzled, distressed, what other words to use? his actions and expressions make me think a lot.. look into it a lot.. is he trying to tell me he doesnt like me? he likes her? okayy.. i just realised that the lyrics for Crush really relates very well to me.. sobs.. though i'm not putting much hope.. but i dont think i'll give up.. i still like him alot!! and i believe one day... ...

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2005-07-03T21:15:00.000+08:00

why is it so difficult for me to just open my mouth and ask a question? y cant i just summon the courage and ask? maybe it's because of my fear of rejection that i'm afraid of asking.. it has always been that.. i dont seem to be able to accept the fear of rejection.. it's just a simple qn! "may i stay over at my friend's house tmr?" maybe the constant rejection by them has led me to be afraid of askin them as i've the answers that i have recieved always disappoint me.. n i hate that feeling..
y wont they just be more open?? it's not as if i'm the only girl there! zzz.. i wished i had more freedom...
the digi cam that i borrowed frm my neighbour can only take 20 shots =_= i rem us taking 80+ shots during 4/2 sentosa trip and fireworks nights.. i wonder if 20 wld be enough.. my kor lah.. always kope the cam... haiz.. i want my own one!!

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2005-06-29T20:52:00.000+08:00

YES!! the mid yrs are over!! i feel a sense of relief.. *slouches in chair* weird thing was i didnt feel disappointed or ath after i completed the phy ppr.. okayy mayb a lil.. but it wasnt too bad.. for now.. i shall not imagine what it'll be like to take back the phy ppr =p

my ears are bleeding.. just listening to slyvester's sim version of hitomi no juunin.. be4 it finished dnling i read some of the comments on the boards.. lol.. among 10+ posts.. there was only 1 pathetic fan of his.. that goes to show how many ppl noe that he is a fuckin poseur.. he sings though he cant sing.. wtf.. not like i sing well therefore i dont like to sing in front of others.. the worse thing is he tried to sing a laruku song.. duhh as if u can asshole. everybody knows that vocals for jap bands are unique.. it's hard to sing their songs. esp hitomi no juunin.. there are so many high pitch parts in there that some girls might not even be able to reach.. but in the end he also went off key.. toot. and the music was totally ruined! there is no dynamics in the song! i think they just took some fuckin lousy recording and then ask him to sing.. there wasnt any live band playin at the back.. mayb it was expected.. few in singapore have the skills of laruku XD i think even those who have dont wanna help the recording company.. of cos they cldnt have a live band.. lousy.. if u wanna do a cover go do a cover of some other chinese pop shit.. dont try to act like a rocker. there are just too many poseurs in this world.

enough of that fuckin asshole. yay.. my com gt a 'new' monitor! but still nt used to it.. haiz.. s3b is still not united enough.. i rem back in amk when the exams were over we wld go hopping ard j8.. eating balls (as in takoyaki if u didnt noe) and other junk food Xd.. now? everybody had their own activities.. haiz.. had to drag myself home.. oh well.. it's hard to bond after ppl already have their cliques right?

kor kor havent reply me!! i wanna play guild wars de!! pls reply me asap!! i hope to go out.. i wanna spend the rest of my free days wisely..
this comes out of nowhere but.. sobs.. i miss him.. i havent gone home with him for quite some time le.. the last time we went back tog was last fri.. wahh ;_;.. hmph. *kicks table kicks chair, hides in corner sulking* kare wa kirai desu! *throws tantrums* >P
to those who havent finish their midyrs.. gd luck and tc~ dont stress yrselves k! guess tt's all.. adios!

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2005-06-28T20:28:00.000+08:00

i hate headaches. headaches suck.

just talked to momo abt initial d.. and learnt the other side of the news report on the interview with the cast that took place just recently.. i think last fri (correct me on this?).. the reporters are bias man.. so what if it's jay chou's maiden voyage in movie production? how can they neglect the other actors' feelings? how can they say edison protrayed bad attitude when it was the reporters negligence? vanessa said edison was nice to her friends.. even shook hands with them and gave them signatures.. see? it's totally based on how you treat a person! please ppl.. and here in schs.. they teach us not to only show one-sided viewpt.. but what is the media showing us? screw them.

haha.. JOKE OF THE DAY(credits to momo): Cars definitely look better than jay chou. And even act better than him. XD

gtg study phy.. last ppr tmr! rejoice.

2005-06-24T22:45:00.000+08:00

hahz.. wat a coincidence.. met mrs ismail at causeway pt just now.. she looked rather bright still.. but she say i look stress.. mayb cos i was havin a headache =_=.. yar.. havin a rather bad headache now.. slpt fer another 2 hrs but i didnt feel better.. hmm..
yay.. awake is released.. but y isnt it placed on the top shelf? haiz.. sadly spore is still not exposed to jap stuff.. oh well.. we're more westernised..
does anybody noe where i can get the Dir en grey Tour 2004, the code of vulgar[ism] dvd?? really wanna watch it.. but i'm nt sure whether i can get it in spore.. sadz..
dir en grey is really a nice band.. pls dont be turned off by their screaming songs.. they're really gd.. a grp tt emphasizes on the vox, bass and drums.. and the guys are really PRETTY.. wth larz..

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2005-06-22T13:16:00.000+08:00

bahhhh 2 more days.. physics!!! i havent figure it out... and chem.. still stagnant.. maths.. it feels okay but like i havent enough practise.. but i feel i can do well in maths, while having thoughts that i shldnt have too high expectations.. and the sitting arrangement is screwed.. it says maths is in lt2 but when i checked the arrangement my class is nt there.. it's in lt4.. so where shld i go on tt day.. screwed sia.. mayb i shld start on chem now.. hmm..
eep.. hope this period passes asap.. the period before the exams seem long.. let's hope the period during the exams wld be quick and after tt let me enjoy the projects as much as possible.. cant wait to jam again.. i'm rotting..
i'm so gonna learn the bass solo for cage.. the fingering is quite okay.. but it's super fast.. tt's the only problem.. i'll learn the whole song after i learn the solo.. maybe i'll move a lil higher if i can do this~ bwahahaha.. i shld set a time frame or sth.. it's a gd song to practise my bass-ing skills X3

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2005-06-21T00:18:00.000+08:00

it's scary.. i'm seeing more dejavu-s as the days goes by.. it gets more frequent n frequent.. maybe one day i shall be able to see what happens the next day ~_~
shit.. i'm screwed.. i didnt study much today.. went to do the 2004 maths promo ppr but only 40% of it was useful.. wanted to study physics but in the end ended up slacking.. zzz.. hope i can complete everything by sat/sun.. god bless me..
hopeful this period ends soon.. i cant wait to start on the music and movie production.. so exciting siak..
starting to feel horrible.. mayb cos i only had 2 hrs of slp on sun morn.. shall go sleep now.. hope my depression mood doesnt come on so soon.. jya.

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2005-06-18T23:47:00.000+08:00

argh... really really tired.. or rather, legs are feeling tired.. really busy day today.. woke up at 730 to prepare to go to the school cause had to report at the zoo by 830.. in the end they delay n delay.. so we started at ard 9+ quite retarded larz.. make me wake up so early in the end start late..
CIP makes one see the true colours of Singaporeans.. though today was not bad.. most of the visitors were nice.. the prob were the kids.. cause sweets were given out to those that got an item frm the stall or took part in the activities.. then there was this brat that took 3 whole bunchful of swts.. i didnt notice it.. only after he ran away then da ge told me he took A LOT. haiz.. then later came another one that took one n another n another..... then i told him that the swts were only fer participants.. then he give me attitude larz.. wtf.. i'm older than him duhh..
the zoo also qutie kiam siap.. no free tee.. last time i did fer the epilepsy grp de they got give tee and wristband.. but the IC say she'll give us sth tmr =D.. but i like tees.. gt a kind of remembrance..
when the stall closed.. me n da ge had to walk back to the auditorium.. so we stopped by the animal land on the way back.. then there were 3 goats tt jumped out of the enclosure.. then amongst the 3 of them.. there was this male goat that was fukin with the female goat in front of everybody larz! no sense of shame! want to do wait until at night.. or when nobody ard.. gt lil kids ard lahZ!! animals.. haiz..
saw a lot of animals.. all so cute!! X3 the giraffes were back too.. but all baby so short short de..
after everthing.. i drag da ge to watch some outdoor concert with me at Orchard.. the field area beside wisma.. it's 'Rock On Singapore'.. when we went there.. there was this all guys grp playin their own songs.. the vox nt bad.. is the rock type de.. songs nt bad too.. the bassist quite cool.. the 2nd grp is a very pop-ist grp.. nt interested.. then after tt came electrico.. they're a local rock band.. after seeing them perform.. i realised y they're popular.. their music is nt bad, vox too.. da ge say their chords is change like nobody's business.. i think the drummer is nt dbl bass.. someone correct me if i'm wrong.. but the drummer very cool.. then the keyboardist is pretty.. frm far she looked like those cool exterior warm interior ppl.. very attractive i wld say.. den da ge called justin n gav to go join us.. but both nt free.. T_T shld have asked him earlier.. sobs..
argh.. I wanna stand on that stage with my bass and my gang tooz.. we shld have a meeting.. and a vision.. then it'll come true......
dont think i'll be slping tonight le.. in 2 hrs i'm goin to the airport.. ciao.

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2005-06-16T18:41:00.000+08:00

just came back from a 'date' with haoren.. haha.. thks for pei-ing me out~ but he was late like 90 mins larz! hmph.. made a girl wait.. guys please don't do that.. it's evil..
anw.. AT LAST GOT TO GO TO KINO! so happy.. saw so many new stuff.. kinda overwhelmed >< bought the whole paradise kiss series.. haha.. haoren was shocked when he saw me taking 5 bks.. but gt 20% discount.. so took the opportunity to buy all the bks.. bought that pair of shades that i really liked too~ den went to HMV.. saw lotsa stuff.. got to know a few 'un-heard' of bands too.. like the bravery, stars and another one which i cant rem the name.. how i wish i got the money to buy all those albums X3 got lotsa stuff i want.. but so little money.. hmm..
got updated abt haoren too.. seems that he's doin real well~ met one of his frens too.. very cute n pretty girl.. hehz.. gd luck in whatever u do and all the best~ make sure you practise yr guitaring!! haha..
yay.. da ge is coming back later.. taking the night flight from china.. how long will he take to reach??

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2005-06-14T21:54:00.000+08:00

woohoo.. papa came home le!! and brought back dozens of durians!! and mangosteens plus rambutans!! ureshii... but he gave away alot of the durians le.. so left a lil bit.. but still got to eat.. super a lot of meat de! first time eat so much.. so happy~
den went chong pang eat.. den went pass the fruits stall.. mountains and mountains of durians larz! what's their prob man.. bring in so many..
eep.. okayy so he knows le.. and i'm beginning to wonder.. what are my real feelings?

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2005-06-14T00:43:00.000+08:00

really bored.. just finished translating the script for gavin.. gavin said he'll treat me lunch! you owe me one!
script's for the movie production done by my cca i.Nnovation.. everytime i tell ppl tt's my cca they'll come.. 'HUH?' yar.. just accept and face the fact that I'm in this cca n stop bugging me.. Yar.. and when the movie comes out make sure you all come support it.. cos i'm THE DIRECTOR. at last the thing is starting.. I was beginning to wonder if it would be able to complete be4 our deadline.. and pray that the movie will be a success *kneels down, places hand together, thank Buddha*
And gav is a real talent.. one of the songs (OP/ED) is super nice.. me learnt bassline.. it's really nice.. so must support the OST tooz.. mayb have some advertising larz.. we'll see about that in the future..
freaked out abt PW.. it's fukin stagnant.. nth's movin.. will I get my A? and i just started revising.. luckily i did listen to lessons.. i dun wanna flung my exams.. hope that i can complete my revisions..
I miss people.. just went roaming in friendster.. i miss them *sobs*.. momo.. bian bian... pip.. bird.. tomato.. fish.. T_T i really miss u guys larz.. sry if i miss out any others.. i just miss everybody in amk..
My kor and da ge and papa is overseas.. mama say papa will come back tmr.. yay.. at last I can feel a lil free.. da ge will come back on the 17th.. and kor will come back on the 19th.. most likely will tag along to bring my kor home.. since it's the holis =D didnt get the chance last time.. so cannot miss this chance..

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2005-06-07T12:44:00.000+08:00

went to watch madagascar with justin, chengwei and jamie yest.. haha.. very cute and funny show.. though the storyline makes no sense.. but quite funny arhz.. especially the squirrel.. i like tt squirrel the most!! it's the cutest animal in that show larz..
then tt cinema we went to yest super packed with children.. i think they came frm some kindergarten or wat.. but quite guai arhz.. nv make a lot of noise..
"I like to move it move it. U like to move it move it. We like to. MOVE IT."
then after tt wanted to go play pool.. but stupid da ge nv bring tee.. den justin ask him go buy.. but he dont wan.. den he ask us go play without him.. den justin say dun wan.. too few ppl very sian.. dunwan dunwan lahz.. hmph. hmpH. mayb cos i in depression mode so i super bu shuang with the way he said it.. dont like him arz.. asshole. must be cos of him make me more depressed.. ====____________====
:still in depression mode:

2005-06-06T19:14:00.000+08:00

It has come to a point in my life that nothing matters to me anymore. Even if i leave this world.. the earth will still spin and everybody else's lives will go on.. nobody would mourn or cry when i lie in my coffin.. and it doesnt matter if he likes me or not.. i just wanna close myself up.. yyyy...

i'm just losing hope when it comes to him.. and all the loads and problems that is piling on my back.. i'm gonna explode any moment.. wishing someone to be there for me. but all i see is darkness.. not a single streak of light..
i need my frens to be there for me.. but do they need me to be there for them? feeling insignificant.. is there any chance between him and me??
[[losing hope.. losing faith.. losing my soul..]]

2005-05-27T22:06:00.000+08:00

woohoo.. today was the 2nd day of the 2 day day-camp..wahhahahaha.. so many fun things happened.. XD
first activity was the trustfall.. when ppl stood on a height of 7 chairs and ppl at the bottom wld catch u.. it was a really nice feeling when in the mid-air.. somehow i felt like as if i was floating in mid-air.. then it was really comfortable when there were ppl at the bottom catching you.. i almost felt like sleeping at the pt when i was lying in the 'cradle'.. thks guys fer catching me! without u guys.. i wont be able to step up the first step towards the obstacle =D
den the nx activity wasnt tt interesting.. we had to grp into grps of 4 with ppl we dunno.. so jori n me went to find 2 other ppl.. then there was this guy so ungentleman.. when we were doin the activity he ask his elbow knock me.. sobs.. now gt blue-black le.. T_T
after lunch we has the graduation game.. called web phobia.. im sure u guys played this game be4.. it's a vertical web whereby u must go over without touching the web.. but ours was horizontal.. haha.. den we mr lau gave junkai a new nickname.. spiderman.. haha.. junkai was super farnie lahz!! he could like just cross over the web by himself lohz! just tiptoe can le!! everybody who saw wat he did was like rofl! justin n xiaochang also can.. but nd ppl to help pull clothes.. cos if ath touch the strings we must leave the hall.. den den den.. after a few times leaving the hall.. then we had another plan.. to put a girl n a guy in a space along the path to carry ppl over.. so so.. they wanted to carry a girl to his space.. den i see nobody wanted to go.. so i volunteer lohz.. wahaha.. n nv did i regret it.. bwahaha.. he carried me n i had to grab ard his neck!! haha.. my heart was like.. beating so fast until i tod it will drop out.. hehe.. but i veh happy lahz.. gt to 'hug' him.. n he carried me tooz!! =DDDDDD
den we had the final sharing session.. when jori said something tt he shldnt have >_<.. oh well.. n then the farewell ceremony.. so touched.. thks to all the facilitators.. u guys were great~ though it was only 2 days.. but i think it's nt bad le.. reminded me of the days when we had the 3-day camp by adam khoo..
quite meaningful arhz.. it's really great tt the sch carried out this activity.. if nt i wldnt have this wonderful experience.. hopeful our class will become more united.. n tt me n him have become closer.. =3 a few close frens feel tt he noes le.. saa... watashi wakaranaii.. XP dunno whether it's a gd thing or bad thing.. heez.. will be back fer more~~

2005-05-26T21:28:00.000+08:00

woohoo~ watch star wars episode III yest... so so so cool... i think it's nice~ though the plot was really predictable.. but it's action-packed.. a well worth watching show i think.. yoda was so cute.. but he so poor thing at the ending part.. he felt so sad when he couldnt defeat the sith lord.. *sayangs yoda*
when to watch kagen no tsuki on tue with da ge.. haiyo.. he slpt throughout most of the show.. i felt tt the show was nice.. but the manga even better.. the actors/actressess just didnt really suit the role tt was protraited in the manga.. and hyde's engrish... haiz.. everybody was kinda laughing.. a lot of funny things in the show tt was so very different from the manga.. i encourage u to read the manga.. dont watch the movie as it will spoil yr impression of yazawa ai works.
today was the first day of the 2 day day-camp.. erm.. quite boring.. lots of talking with lil activities done.. but they promise tmr will be a gd day.. nt much happened today arhz..
hmm.. anw.. there was this activity tt asked us to move ard the hall to find ppl tt we dont know/attracted to/wanna noe more abt etc.. den after tt we had a sharing session.. the facilitators picked him to ask abt his experience.. then of cos when a person talks you look at him/her right? so i looked at him while he was talking.. den the facilitators asked did he go and tok to someone he was attracted to.. so.. i felt tt he looked at me! or mayb.. he was looking at irene.. or jovin.. or.... suxian.... *shrugs*
haiyo.. da ge mouth very xie men also.. mon after i went fer pw meeting i asked da ge to pei wo go play pool.. den we were toking abt him at the shop tt sells games.. den suddenly he appeared.. haha.. both of us were shocked.. XP
haha.. will post tmr on tmr's events

2005-05-13T21:38:00.000+08:00

YAAYYYY!!! I'M EXEMPTED FROM AFTERNOON PE!! TT'S VEH GOOD NEWS! hehe.. cos i gt silver fer napfa.. whee.. tod i would fail standing board jump.. but i gt D.. =DDDD
hehe.. havent updated fer a long time.. went to update myself on the lives of momo.. pip.. bird.. n others.. ah.. really miss u guys.. thinkin of u guys everyday.. T_T let's go out someday soon kz??
buahaha.. in this band now.. heez.. n i'm the bassist =D lurves all the guys in there.. they are all nice n cool.. but all listen to english songs lahz.. so dont think will have a chance to cover l'arc songs.. really wanted to do though.. tetsu's bass rather hard to play >_< bu kui shi momo de banana boy XP
ahh.. i tink he likes this other girl in class.. and i THINK she likes him too (i hope not).. tt's WAT I FEEL only.. da ge say dont believe my intuition cos nt very accurate de.. sobs.. i tink he likes tall girls.. haiz.. feel like giving up.. but my dear da ge say i shld nt give up.. tt's veh gay =_= dunno y he say tt also.. how how?? i really dunno wat to do now..
*madly in <3*

2005-05-02T21:18:00.000+08:00

y do ppl need each other in order to survive? cant we just survive alone, shutting up our hearts and souls.. how i wish i could just throw everything aside, spread my wings, and fly towards paradise.. my home is no longer my home.. i find no comfort in it anymore.. i wish to lose my memory and start all over again.. i'm so afraid tt everybody finds me irritating.. just like in the past.. i want to lead a new life.. baka mitai.. watashi wa.. jibun ga dai kirai desu! naze watashi wa kare wa konna ni suki desuka? i just wanna shut myself up.. or even better.. not wake up frm my slumber..

2005-04-05T21:48:00.000+08:00

hmm.. few words to describe me..
Tall,
Slim,
Pretty,
NOT ME.
haiz.. sth really bad happened just now.. mayb i shldnt have asked tt qn.. anyhoo.. wat's happened has happened.. just hope tt nth dramatic happens tmr.. argh.. totally affected now.. cant let it get to me..
it's gonna be another day with the sunshine........ lalalalala.....

2005-04-02T08:38:00.000+08:00

Argh!! super bu shuang now.. my class nt on the lehz!!! last time when 4/2 had our sentosa outing we were super on lohz! though it was a last minute notice almost everybody turned up! y wasnt it the same today!! ah!! so now i'm stuck at home le! still so qi dai today can go east coast!! ah!!! *super bu shuang slams on wan's forehead*
Anw.. so sry very long nv post le.. didnt have the mood to.. mayb cos (censored) left ny le!! appeal to his jc in mind was successful.. though a bit sad to hear the news tt day but ta kai xin jiu hao.. if have chance sure will meet each other de!!
haha.. though i'm kinda happy these few days.. *grins*

2005-03-22T21:33:00.000+08:00

woot.. so im officially announced to be posted to NANYANG JUNIOR COLLEGE.
hmm.. this yr seems to be a tough yr.. some ppl were not able to get into their choice of sch.. i was really shocked at those who couldnt get into their choice of sch cos they were supposed to be able to get in!! hmm.. dragon yr.. hahz...
hmm.. sry if im nt much of a condolence.. im bad at consoling.. but i only have one thing to say.. watever u have met.. god must have sth planned for u.. so just follow as yr heart takes u.. n u'll have no regrets! so take care ppl.. let's nt brood abt the past.. step to the present.. n look to the future!!

2005-03-21T21:16:00.000+08:00

*cries* my com's down for like... 4 days??? AH!! i nd my Bleach n Melody of Oblivion fix!! i cant make it le!!! wah!!! will only be able to ask chengwei for help on fri.. n then destiny is dnling so so so slowly... will it be able to make it in time be4 i completely, really, absolutely cannot make it???
Anw.. buhahahaha.. pon sch today again.. actually nt our fault lahz.. really nth to do in sch.. we went for 2 hrs.. watched super-sized me in sch.. nt bad lahz.. very informative.. made me kinda sick of mac le.. after tt everybody was feeling hungry so we left for tp central.. den couldnt tink of wat to do after tt.. in the end went to choy's house for another like 2 hrs.. actually planned for him to change his clothes but in the end we sat there playing mahjong n watching movie.. after tt we went to lucky plaza to play pool~~ wai~ so happy.. very long nv play le.. n i won 2 rounds tooz~ ureshii.. *happiness falling on wanwan* hehe.. meet olinda (spelled correctly?) on the way home at orchard mrt station tooz.. hanying was so cute!! haha.. weifang spotted her and everybody was like.. kan chiong kan chiong!! hanying run up to shake hands with her.. then run up again to take a pic with her.. haha.. really funny.. had lotsa fun today..
oo.. tmr is the release of results.. but nyj gt the results le.. some of those who applied for ogl alreadi noe tt they are posted to ny le.. ah.. but i still dunno.. must wait till tmr.. a bit kan chiong.. still have a feeling of apprehension.. but now.. i wld really like to stay in ny..
hahz.. hope my com can get well as soon as possible.. thks a lot chengwei for offering this help.. cos my kor very seldom at home now.. hontouni arigatai!
jya. matane!

2005-03-04T23:24:00.000+08:00

hey peeps! erm.. dont wanna talk much abt the o's lahz.. might be depressing for some of u.. grats to those who were happy with their results.. for those we were nt happy.. life has to go on same as mine.. so cheer up n work hard kz?! gambatte ne?!

Hehe.. so we had a mini 'ct outing' with fang, linggs, gavin, justin n chengwei.. omg! there was so much fun manz! we went jalan kayu to have roti prata.. but justin had to go for his dental appointment.. so me, fang, linggs brought gavin to have a haircut.. haha.. when gavin took out his specs linggs remarked tt he looked like some old man frm simpsons.. lol.. so farnie.. then after tt we went ahead to jalan kayu..
den we waited like 2 hrs for justin n chengwei.. but linggs was turning in bones so we went to order food.. den when justin n chengwei came fang wanted to make fun of them in order to get a free ice-cream prata... but in the end we did pay for the prata.. keke.. sry chengwei n justin!! just wanna have some fun.. but dunno y today keep laughing.. when we were eating we just kept laughing cos of some jokes.. sry i cant rem le.. >_< anw it's very very funny!! really enjoyed myself today.. thks guys..

hahz.. gt so many fond memories.. i tink nx actual ct outing is to east coast park bahz.. let's have bbq or a picnic~!!

2005-03-02T21:18:00.000+08:00

haiz.. my results really sucked.. ****.. supposed to get 3 a1s but i gt only 1.. was really shit.. i felt like shit for 2 whole days.. still feeling the pain now.. then everybody comes n tell me they gt 7-11 pts.. make me feel even shitty.. n then everybody now comes and tell me they wanna enter nyjc.. i was like WTF! my results like tt.. how am i gonna stay in ny?? n then so many ppl gate crash ny today.. didnt expect ny to be so popular.. the 1st intake also nt so popular arhz.. stupid baby boom.. though i like dragons but i have a hard time living now.. haix.. high egoistic dragons.. high self-esteem dragons.. dragons are beautiful but are hard to control beings.. just like us.. >_< a bit no link hohz..
oh well.. i tink i'll be putting ny as 1st choice.. i still really dunno wat my future holds.. like some say.. just live the best tt u can today n let tmr worry abt tmr.. but everytime i think of the future i will have a sense of uncertainty.. and it's a damn ****ing feeling.. anw i most probably will put ny as 1st choice.. i still dunno whether i shld hope tt i can stay in ny or nt.. but since it's my 1st choice i shld hope nehx?
Anw.. we heard tt innova jc has this pool cca.. n tt is so darn cool.. i wanna join tooz! Then justin or gav(cant rem) was sayin.. 'let's set up one tooz'.. Ah!! i will surely join de.. ny doesnt have a gd, wide variety of cca choices..

2005-02-27T20:37:00.000+08:00

And also to Chongfu Primary School Class 5D/6D (1999-2000).. Ang Mo Kio Secondary School 1/2,2/2(2001-2002) n 3/2,4/2(2003-2004).. and everyone i know in NYJC [ESPECIALLY OG 32! n 05S6A of cos].. Gd luck for tmr~! hope u guys get the results that u want n to get in wherever tt u want to enter~ N to all out there who will be getting yr results tmr!

2005-02-27T19:05:00.000+08:00

This poem is hereby dedicated to the lovely class of O5S6A of NYJC:

How fast time flies three months are gone
the awkward moments now are gone
the fun and games the work and stress
twice we ran out of the gates
strangers at first now best of friends
but soon we'll part and might not meet
come to me if you're in need of a listening ear
thank you all for the tears and smiles
forget me not for i'll remember you
the memories we had will stay in my heart
in the future i'll recall
that i've met great people friends like you.

To the wonderful people of 05S6A.. I have really enjoyed the moments that we've spent together.. though it's not the end of the 3 mths.. this poem is dedicated to you guys.. i thought of this poem myself~ hope you guys like it.. i really enjoyed myself yest.. hope you guys dont blame me for being a wet blanket by having to go back early.. sry fang for making you go home so late.. thks again to kel, gavin, xiao rou n dearest fang.. really really gan dong.. thks kel, hanying, kai xin, xiao rou, justin, gavin, ming hao, weifang, ade, choy n chiang thai for going to yest outing.. hope that there'll be more such outing~
To all of 05S6A.. wishing you all the best for tmr.. dont worry.. you guys can make it de.. cos we're 05S6A!! remember to contact me.. i'll always be online n my hp will always be on.. hope that you guys can make it into wherever u want.. and stay happy n funky always! 05S6A rox! *sniff sniff* i'll miss you guys.. lurve ya~

2005-02-24T19:39:00.000+08:00

Yahoo~~!! Gt to watch Hauru(Howl) today! Wai! Was so happy! Thks Vanessa for going out with me today! *Muacks* The show rocks man! I wanna watch again! I wanna watch again! It's so sweet and touching.. though the relationship between howl n sophie was kinda abrupt.. but it's really nice.. the whole story is nice.. well.. spirited away and howl's moving castle has 各自的优点.. but i feel that both are nice.. though howl's plot was a bit rushy.. shld have been more in depth.. then it wld be nicer.. AAAHHH!! Anw howl is so cool! i prefer him with dark blue hair to when he had blonde hair XD Gd job sophie! X3 I just browse through the webbie and found out tt Hauru no ugoku shiro is actually under the love genre tooz! =o didnt noe tt.. but it's kinda obvious after u watch the show nehx..
SO... It's confirmed tt the results will be released on mon.. which means there's still sch tmr.. Oh well.. hope Mr Lau wont say ath and let today pass =X gtg now.. Tc ppl~! Gt any activities must inform me kz!

2005-02-23T16:39:00.000+08:00

PPL! Rumours that it's 2 more days! I'm sure u guys noe wat it is! It's the release of the O lvl results of 2004! Some of u might be feeling scared.. anticipating.. excited.. dunno wat to feel... Anw.. Im sure that all of u will do well! Hope that everybody will get the results tt they want!
Really no mood to study now.. Still wondering if we shld leave sch early tmr.. I wanna watch a movie! Haix.. there's still sch on fri.. But i tink i wont be goin.. y shld they force us to go to sch on fri???? I mean.. who the hell wld have the fuckin mood to study?! I tink there's sth terribly wrong with our education system.. It's too fuckin strict on us.. no matter wat.. we are still humans n shld have our own freedom.. We'll face up to the consequences of our actions.. At least let us decide wat we want to do!! Making us feel like cage birds.. No wonder ppl are sayin the Singapore government ****.. I tink there's really a prob with the education system.. No wonder there's a brain drain..

2005-02-19T23:07:00.000+08:00

Haiz.. feeling really really sad right now.. dunno wat happen to my mum.. y issit always like this? y shld ppl be angry and upset with me when it shld be the other way ard? y issit after so many yrs it's still like this?? i'm so puzzled n confused over n abt my life.. no one to talk to.. confide in.. cry to.. this is so tiring.. though ppl always say.. think abt the gd things tt u are given.. but im nt such a goody person.. I cant stand loneliness..
I wonder.. Just how long more can this last...

2005-02-18T16:30:00.000+08:00

There has nv been such a pathetic day in sch in my life. Imagine so many ppl having to think of ways to get out of the sch. Wat a crazy sch tt is. Anw.. there was NO lessons today so we wanted to hang out at kelvin's (aka cute boy) house after the ct period.. But we were caught at the entrance of the sch gate.. Actually i tink this whole matter started becos of us.. Cos we were hangin ard at the gate waiting for ppl.. BUT.. this wld happen sooner or later.. So teachers were stationed at the gates to catch students who tried to sneak out.. But in the end we managed to get out.. However.. it seems tt those who left will get a scolding on moday.. *sigh* Oh well.. at least we had fun at kelvin's house.. Thks for lending us yr place to hang ard~~

My appetite isnt coming back.. I havent eaten lunch for many many days (except yest).. No mood for dinner tooz... Tasukete!!

2005-02-17T20:32:00.000+08:00

Adios! Our sch had an event today called Escapade.. and of cos it was held in our very own Escape Theme Park!! Woohoo! Okay.. for those tt had gone to other countries theme park be4 i have no comments.. But for me.. It kinda rocks! Actually my grp was cool.. except so n so n so n so n so n so...... *Ahem* Anw.. The whole Escape was booked for us!! So there were only NYJ ppl around.. and.. and.. I felt tt im more courageous now! I didnt close my eyes in any of the rides! But in some my heart still felt like it was gonna come out.. Demo! This time i could really enjoy the rides! Ureshii~~
At last I can change my hp.. But I dunno wat hp to change tooz.. Hahz.. ppl!! can give me some reccommendations?? thks a million!!

2005-02-12T22:29:00.000+08:00

Though it's kinda late.... HAPPY LUNAR NEW YEAR PPL!! Actually I came back yest evening but had to unpack my luggage so cldnt say hi to u guys >_< New year was fun in msia.. saw many new n exciting discoveries! Saw purple chilli padis.. So kawaii!
Haha.. den I learnt the msian style of playing mahjong.. But it's nt a fun game.. I still prefer the hongkong style.. It uses brains! This shows tt msians are so lazy.. No offence pls..
Oh.. den i tried porcupine meat tooz.. it's much tougher than wild boars meat.. can u imagine how tough tt is! But it was rather delicious.. my granduncle gave my a porcupine spike tooz.. very sharp n pretty~
There were many fires in msia tooz.. The country was so hot n the heat was unbearable! We went to port dickson btw n the place was experiencing a drought tooz.. Everyday we cld see white smoke.. Flashes of orange flames.. Black trees n grasses.. This year was the worse in years! Hope it wld be better nx yr..
My relatives are thinking of coming to spore this march.. hope they decide to come over! I'm very afraid of the kids though.. my rm is full of precious stuff! Hmm.. we'll see how..
Anw.. Vdae's just ard the corner~ Here.. I wish all the lovely couples a wonderful relationship ahead and may you guys overcome all odds! HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAY!

2005-01-29T22:45:00.000+08:00

*skates skates* Yay!! Wai~ At last I've got my own pair of blades! Bought it at $59.90 at carrefour this morning.. really hav to thk ed for pei-ing me out this whole morning n early afternoon.. Hontoni arigatai~! I think the blades are nice for tt price tt i gt it.. Den i gt a new water bottle tooz! And it's the NIKE one!! dont tell u guys where i gt it XP but.. REALLY REALLY REALLY THKS TO THE SOURCE WHERE I GOT IT! WILL BUY U STH WHEN I GO TO MSIA!
Den i went to sentosa for the 4/2 class gathering!! wah.. really missed u guys T_T at long last was able to see u guys again.. but so cham.. kena pushed into the water.. yuck.. the water tasted so salty.. N i hurt my knee too ;_; ouch.. it's still hurting bad now.. but was really cool.. must hold more outings!
Anw.. jessie n peeps in SJC hav joined the chingay motivationer sth.. they wld be goin for chingay practises n the final performance.. So we will be goin to support them! Peeps frm NYJ can go with us too! Just tell me and we'll arrange the meeting!!
*yawns* rather tired frm all the travelling.. gtg do tutorials tooz.. Ciaoz~!

2005-01-21T22:07:00.000+08:00

Today we went out to east coast park.. how sad.. it was meant to be and OG outing but in the end only 4 ppl n 2 ogls turned up.. then we met grp 36 at east coast park too.. then i was like wtf.. almost the whole og went.. how pathetic..
Anw.. AT LAST I CAN BLADE ON MY OWN! quite happy lahz.. like an achievement.. then when we were having fun my mum called me and told me to reach home by 6.. then my frends gave the very shocked look.. huh? so early? yea.. wth.. but i cldnt care less.. so I made a new friend today.. kelly ann.. wat a special name.. she's quite cute tooz.. Her mum came to fetch me, joyce n weilin.. And she is omg sexy and cool.. me and weilin were in the car complaining abt how strict n conservative our mums were.. then kelly ann's mum was saying, "huh? y like tt? I give her all the freedom as long as she doesnt cause any trouble.." So cool right? And she even noes her daughter's bf and all her frens' names and add!! My mum dont even bother to rem.. haiz..
Anw.. back to when i still in the park.. I suddenly gt this blading fever and decided to get my own blades.. so edwin say he cld go with me to get a pair tmr.. N i was thinking shun bian go to NYP.. So I just told my mum tt I'm goin to NYP tmr.. den she said,"After goin to NYP u better come home okay? Dont go out anymore.." I'm really depressed now and dun wish to talk to her.. I'm really sry Edwin.. I make empty promises.. Mayb nx wk?
Haiz.. I'm alr goin to be 17!! I'm a grown up! "I'm not yet a woman.. But I'm NO LONGER A GIRL!!" Y do I have to be treated this way! Though wat vanessa says is true tt i'm always a kid in her eyes.. but i need to have my freedom!! haiz.. Im feeling really sucky.. Sad life I have

2005-01-18T17:24:00.000+08:00

Wai~!! Chicken sausage bun!! *munch munch* I've nv had a proper lunch since last wk T_T.. Today we had to run 8 rounds again... n i didnt have lunch.. luckily edwin n errol brought food during the common lunch break.. actually we were supposed to eat during tt time but we had to discuss the drama thingie so we had to forgo lunch!! Almost fainted.. Anw.. THKS GUYS!
Ouch.. fingers still hurting frm playing the guitar yest.. i still have problems shifting my fingers ard >_< my main purpose of learning the guitar is so tt i can learn how to play the electric guitar!! Anyone can tutor me??? I wanna learn how to play laraku's songs!! hehehe....
Lessons are boring.. people are fun.. trying to get over tt feeling..

Inu ga daisuki~

2005-01-16T18:35:00.000+08:00

Wai~~ more ppl are rearing dogs this days! I want one tooz! and loop-ear rabbits!! zhi kai has two.. and I saw one in the pprs!! all so pretty n cute! *faints* Anw.. sch's tmr.. luckily there's only 1 hr of study =D can slack a bit..
Hmm.. still gt econs left to do.. Ciao

Really Sorry...

2005-01-15T22:33:00.000+08:00

Hi ppl! I'm so sry I had to restart my blog again.. I forgot the username for the other one.. Really sry! Anw.. for those tt dont where i'm now.. I'm studying in NYJC ^^.. YAY cool place.. Met a lot of friends there.. But missing you guys frm AMKSS tooz T_T oh well.. life has to go on.. anw i'll try my best not to be lazy and update as frequent as possible.. sry for all the trouble!